Kids can be a real challenge!

well today has been an interesting one. i decided to have a bit of a slack day today, and the kids took full advantage of it. i came out this morning and it looked like the Easter bunny had been again. there was little chocolate eggs from one end of the house to the other. not to mention everything else they threw on the floor to help hide the eggs.

later on in the day i walk into Annalee's room to find she had used sticky tape to tape some stuff to the walls. not such a bad things except i spent a fortune last holidays, not to mention the time i spent painting their rooms. needless to say mum was so not happy, and she was just lucky it came off without taking the paint with it.

then this afternoon, i was trying to work out why the dogs were going nuts, one of the dogs even jumped in my bedroom window and we couldn't get her back out. i finally worked out that the kids had turned up the range on the shock collars that the dogs wear to keep them contained in our yard (they escape with out them) the poor dogs were getting shocked all the time. the poor things. i fixed it all up, and asked the kids who did it, and of course, no-one did it. (this no-one has a lot to answer for in this house, if anyone see them can you tell him or her I'm looking for them) so with no-one owning up, i threatened all the kids and told them if it happened again i would put the collars on them and do the same to them. needless to say they seamed less than impressed with that idea. lol. not that i would ever do it, but the kids don't know that he he. I'm evil, i know.

well that's been my day today, lets hope tomorrow isn't as eventful. a nice quiet day is called for, whether i get it or not remains to be seen.

I'm sort of looking forward to the kids going back to school, i love having them around, but it will be nice to have a break. my partner hasn't taken the kids off my hands once over the holidays.

i really need some time to myself, as i have some pretty big decisions to make about mine and the kids futures. I have decided to leave my partner after 15 yrs, as it feel as though we are just room mates now. there is nothing there to show any different, and i do mean nothing.

but i am not just going to jump into this, i am keeping it under wraps at the moment, as i need to pay off some debt first. it is both our debt, but for me to be able to live without worrying about money i need to clear these debts. that way if something happens and i cant work it wont be such a big deal. Plus he wouldn't be able to cope with his half of the debt either, so I'm trying to do us both a favour.

so i have a few goals, which i need to reach as soon as possible. the first of which is i have to pay out $22,000. which is possible. as i have about $6-7000 which i will be able to pay off mid year. it will probably take 6-8 months to do it.

so in this 6-8 months, I'm going to also concentrate on myself. I'm going to try to finish my study course (financial counsellor) as quick as possible, so i will be able to start looking for work as quickly as possible.

i also want to concentrate on living a healthier life. i have a lot of weight i want to lose, and i think now is time to do it. i don't feel comfortable within myself. and if i want to start going out and having some fun again, then i need to feel comfortable.

i will also be starting to live my life as if it was just the kids and I. this happens now anyway, but i find I'm getting argument's with him trying to get him to involved himself. so now i wont worry about that. it feels like were just flatmates, so i might as well make it so.

so the first day of the rest of my life starts tomorrow. and i think it will start with going for a walk with the kids and the dogs, if its not raining. if it is raining, ill stay and play games with the kids.